A New Beginning

July 16th 2012, that was the last time I posted in this blog. I still cannot believe how fast time flies. I started this blog as a way to write down my thoughts and the things I was dealing with and eventually life took over and sadly this blog became forgotten.

So much has happened in these (almost) three years, too much to all write down in one posting. A very long story short, over these last few years since my last post, I have made new friendships, lost some, grown as a person, discovered new things, met a wonderful man, finished a four year journey through University, and started a new journey with that wonderful man I am now able to call my fiancé and soon to be husband.

The last two things are my biggest accomplishment and all happened this year. I do not know how often I will post in this blog but I will do my best. Writing is calming and peaceful and this is a way I can speak my mind.

Since getting engaged I plan on creating a wedding blog to keep up with the journey I will be taking until they day I say "I do" so be sure to keep an eye out for the newest blog edition!

Until then...

Flashbacks to first year.

Hey people! I'm sorry once again for not posting in quite sometime. I've been very busy had been going though some ex-boyfriend issues but now that, that's all over and done with I was able to come up with some free time to post. (Even if it is 1:10am in the morning)

Some of you might be wondering why I'd be posting so late. Well, simple enough, I had a two hour nap from 7:30-9:30 so now I'm wide awake and chances are I won't be getting to sleep till around two :) So why not do some blogging!? Anyways tonight I decided to talk about university. A year ago around this time I was finding out what residence I would be staying in, I was meeting lots of people on my university's freshmen Facebook page by comparing schedules and finding out who my neighbours were. It's amazing to think this all happened a year ago!

Tonight I was looking at my different Facebook pages and I was looking at updates and saw there was one in Class of 2015. I went on the group and saw a posting about this year's class of 2016 group and how it was buzzing with anticipating first years and the post also mentioned how this was us last year. I commented mentioning all the things I missed about first year and soon enough I was having a random conversation with some people on the group and right there I started having flashbacks to first year.

I'm lucky enough to have one of my friends going into first year so I'm able to give her advice and help her out by finding facebook groups for her and stuff like that but I'm also reliving my first year anticipation with her. It's almost sad when I think about it because I miss first year so much! I miss meeting fellow first years and ordering my first university textbooks and getting new bedding and other colourful things for my new residence room and all those crazy things! I also miss that anticipating feeling of starting university for the first time ever and being on my own for longer than a week. And the excitement of walking around campus from class to class and being apart of an amazing university.

Although I am no longer a first year I'll still be living on campus in residence, I'll living in the townhouses so I'll need to get some cook wear since I'll get to cook and bake. And I'm still getting those anticipating feelings but it's just not the same. First year was the best year of my life, the best year of any school. A word of advice for people who are starting a new journey at university. Make the most of your first year! You only get to be a first year once! Try new things, join lots of clubs, attend football games, go to parties and make LOTS of memories :) You'll never have a dull moment in university, I gaurentee it :)

-Marianna

Everything happens for a reason

Hey guys

I know it's been a month since I last posted and I am quite sorry for that but I've been busy with lots of things. Tonight has not been the best so I thought I would get out my emotions in a post...

So tonight was a night that I have been expecting for a while and that was the break up with my boyfriend of a year and 2 months. These last couple of months had been rockier than usual but we always sorted it out and everything seemed fine. Even today our day started out fine and then all of a sudden everything went down hill so fast

I don't want to give details because I don't need the whole world knowing but it ended badly. As much as this break up made me so mad and I hated him tonight for what happened it finally sunk in how much I'm actually going to miss him and how much I loved him. However I was actually doing very well. We had our fight, he stormed out (and took his stuff which gave me the feeling we were going to break up) then he called, said some things and then broke up with me. All I said was okay bye and even though I was mad I didn't want to say the many things that were in my brain that I could have easily said to him because I just didn't care. And that's the interesting part. When we had our fight and he stormed out of our house I didn't care and I didn't care if he were to call me and break up with me. So anyways that happened and my mom was really proud how I handled it and so was I. When I changed my status and people were saying "Omg are you okay? What happened?" I was still mad and still not phased by the break up. It wasn't till my dad came in and gave me a hug and asked if I was okay that I started tearing up (not crying though). When I decided to go to sleep and I was laying in bed, images of this last year was going through my mind. I started thinking about all the fights we had and the fight we had tonight and that was fine because it made me mad and not regret the break up, but when I started thinking about the really good times I had with him that's when it started sinking in and I realized how much I'm going to miss him and how much I really do love him and I started crying.

Summer is starting (even though mine started middle of April) and I need to focus on finding a job. I'm going into second year so in 2 months I'll be starting a new year at the most amazing university which means I still have so much ahead of me. As much as this is now sinking in and I'm kinda devastated as I type this, it's not the end. When you think of it relationships are never the end, they are just a new learning curve in your life. It's a chapter that has ended and it's time for me to begin writing the next one because it's a new beginning of my life.


I'm going to miss him and I love him still after everything that happened tonight and in the past and one day I will move past it. For now I just need to take it one day at a time and enjoy the things life throws at me. After all everything happens for a reason.

Good Night all

-Marianna

Canada's Wonderland trip ft. Leviathan!

Hey Guys!

So yesterday I went to Canada's Wonderland with two of my good friend's from university and this was my first time back in two years. For those of you that don't know Canada's Wonderland is located in Vaughn, ON and it is the most amazing theme park ever! If you haven't gone and you live close to there I totally recommend going to it!

Anyways, so a new ride opened this year called Leviathan. I found a definition of the word that fits perferctly. Something unusually large of its kind. Well that certainly defines the ride to a "T". Leviathan is the tallest, fastest and longest ride in not only Canada's Wonderland but also all of Canada. It towers the park at 306' (93.3 m) being much taller than the 2nd tallest ride at Wonderland, Behemoth, which two years ago towered the park at 230' (70 m) making it the tallest at the time. The length of the track spans at 5, 486' (1,672 m) which comes outside the park to the front gate so while you're getting your tickets or season's pass a part of the ride passes over top of you. This out-lengths Behemoth which is 5,318' (1,620.9 m). Not only does Leviathan have a death-defying first drop which has an angle of 80 degress and has a speed of 92 mph (146 km/h)  but the first drop is so steep that when you're at the top of the hill, you can't even see the bottom, and the ride lasts 3 min and 28 seconds! This also out trumps Behemoth which has an angle of 75 degrees, a speed of 77 mph (128 km/h) and lasts 3 minutes and 10 seconds. Both rides are amazing but with Leviathan's height, length, speed and it's twists and turns is sure to get your adrenaline going and your blood pumping!

Now to talk about my experience yesterday. My one friend and I arrived at the park well before it opened so we could get our season's pass before the park opened mainly to beat the rush. Once we got them we went straight to line up to get into the "Medieval Faire" part of the park which is where the Leviathan is located. When we arrived at the lineup we were only in it for about 20 minutes because they hadn't put out the line extensions. Those 20 minutes seemed to take forever due to my nerves and my excitement. We managed to get front of the line and experienced the greatest ride ever. I have to say if you're going to go on this ride it needs to be the front or the back, those are the best places to feel the weightlessness of the ride. It met all of my expectations and I wasn't disappointed we started with this ride.

We later met up with our other friend and we went on all our favourite rides throughout the day taking breaks for lunch, snacks, a cool down and then dinner. After dinner we decided to go on Leviathan one more time and end the day on a high note. We got in line at 8:40pm and by this time the line extensions were out and the line up was much much longer. We met some nice girls and talked to them which helped passed the time. By the time we were up at the gates for the lines for the seats it was 10pm so being in line for 1hr 20min we were anxious for the ride. We didn't get front row which was disappointing but we got the 4th row which was fine. So we get in the seats and the ride starts and we start approaching the hill. Now let me just quickly tell you one of my worst fears is getting stuck on a roller coaster and especially the first hill. We were joking about how Behemoth's first year some cars got stuck at the top of the hill. So we get the hill and the first row is about the start the incline when the ride stops. Now flashing back to my fear I got a little nervous, not too much though cause we were still level. They started our car going again and just as the second row started the incline the ride stops again. At this point I'm panicking a bit more but still pretty calm cause we were still level. They again start the ride again and this time we started the incline and the ride stops  again! This is where I started freaking out cause I am now living my worst fear. Thanks to my one friend she helped calm me down but I was still shaking like an earthquake in my seat. They started our car again and this time took it very slow. This made me nervous because I was petrified we'd  get stuck higher up, luckily we were able to finish the ride with no more problems. It was definitely a memorable way to end the day.

All in all I LOVED this ride! It made me scream, it had the thrill factor, the speed, height, length and twists and turns got my adrenaline going and my hair flying in every direction. Even though I got stuck on the ride it definitely has not turned me away and I would recommend this ride to anyone and everyone! If you'd like to check out a POV of the ride then click (or copy and paste) the link below. I must warned you though this video doesn't give it justice.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cym2hj4SVqw&feature=share

Struggles with relationships

Ever been in a relationship where you feel like you're the one who's not being heard? The one who cares more about the relationship and works the hardest to make the relationship work? If you have I can relate.

Relationships can be hard, especially at this age. You're hormones and emotions are running high, and technology doesn't help either, especially texting. Text one thing and without the expression in the voice then it can be taken the complete other way and just like that an argument can begin. When these fights happen they can be rough, believe me I know, but what I always wonder is how someone in a relationship can be so cruel sometimes in these fights whether it's girls or boys.

When you're in a relationship one of the minor, well not even minor, major expectations is that person is supportive of the things you do. If you're into sports they should want to come to competitions and cheer you on, if you're and actor then they should want to be at everyone of your performances. Now I don't know if that's just me who thinks these things but it seems like a logical expectation doesn't it? Also here's something I wonder about and see if you girls agree. When you're in a relationship do you want to hear your boyfriend tell you, you look beautiful even when you're not wearing make up? Do you want to hear them say how much they love you? Do you want them to listen to you when you have a problem and they need someone to talk to? I answered yes to all of these and I'm hoping it's not just me and my hopeless romanticness and that there are girls out there who agree with me. It's one thing knowing they know all these things but it's another thing to hear them right?

Something I'm curious about is when you're fighting with your significant other and they say horrible things how can you tell when they mean what they're saying or if it's just because you're fighting? I've seen relationships where the person is getting torn down and told they're terrible at something there passionate about and been called horrible things and yet they're still with them. I realized that there has to be a reason why you're still with them and you need to think and be able to do one of two things.

1. Stay with them and talk things out: Sometimes all it takes is two people to sit down and discuss things. If all you do is fight, get mad and just let it blow over then the issues will never get solved. Or...
2.  Leave them: I know seeing those words are hard and believe me when I say they're hard to read. But as people have told me in the past if you're unhappy with the relationship and the cons out weigh the pros then you could leave. It might be the hardest thing you do and it might scare you to death but you'll have people all around you who will support you through this and you may learn more about yourself without this person than you thought you knew.

I'm sorry, I know it must seem like I'm ranting and I know this is a pretty long post but being in a relationship that's kind of rocky at the moment I needed to get things off my chest and some questions answered.  I hope you guys can relate and please comment whether it's a comment or a question. I'd love to hear your thoughts on the subject.

~Marianna

Intro...Short and Sweet

Hey all

As it is 2:08 in the morning and I'm kinda tired so I shall keep this intro short and sweet...like me! Aha, just kidding. Don't want to bore you with my back story cause you can just read my profile for that but here are the basics.

My name is Marianna, I'm 5ft, 18 soon to be turning 19 and I'm a proud Canadian. As you can tell by my blog title I am an artist and I love mauve. If you don't know or can't tell by the background mauve is purple (lol). I've been acting since the age of 5, have been in a total of 34 shows and counting and I began teaching myself music when I was 8. I also sing, dance, draw, compose music, write, knit, crochet, sew, etc. I know 10 different instruments which I taught myself AND I'm attending university where I am majoring in both Music and Theatre Studies.

That's pretty much me in kind of a nut shell. I would tell more but why spoil things now when you can keep reading and learn more about me in the posts to come? As for the future posts there's no specific themes such as only talking about music and theatre or only talking about my life story day by day. In this blog I will be discussing movies, music, likes, dislikes, TV shows, relationships and so much more. I'm hoping I can relate to all sorts of people and you'll all keep up with my posts day by day or week by week.

Guess that's all to say for now. Hope you all enjoy "Tales from the Artist in Mauve" and I'll catch you later

 Caio!

~Marianna

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